"For now I say goodbye to this chapter in my life. And I look forward to what comes next."
The holiday season has officially died down and 2015 is in full swing. And as cliché as it sounds, I'm ready for this fresh start everyone is talking about. I have never been one to make resolutions for the new year. I hate when people publicly make a big deal about things they want to accomplish in the upcoming year and then choose to ignore them as soon as the excitement wears off. I like to focus on aspects of my life and myself I'm always wanting to improve, rather than using the start of a new year as an excuse to make a change. I am always striving to be a more outgoing individual. I think this is something I will always have to work on, simply because it is not my personality. I'm quiet compared to a lot of people, sitting back while others stand in the spotlight. I often listen and think instead of talking and taking action. But looking back I've realized how far I've come, even since just the beginning of college. This year already feels a little different than all the others. It's probably pretty easy to say this after the passing of every 365 days, but I truly mean it when I say 2014 was the best and worst year of my life. I discovered how difficult change can be. And how much I hate it. I was pushed out of my comfort zone more times than I can count, opening myself up to new experiences and new people. Saying that I had fun would be an extreme understatement. I think since this past year was such a huge turning point in so many ways, that is why 2015 seems quite distinctive. Some variation of this is uttered by Ryan Seacrest each year as the ball drops and the clock hits midnight, but who knows, maybe typing it here makes a difference - I think this year has immense potential. Promise. The events of 2014 happened for a reason, whether I loved or hated what was going on. But I believe that overall reason was to prepare myself for what's to come in 2015. Basically, my warm up. I tend to hold on to the idea of things I want a little too tightly, no matter how much they are just not meant to happen. I don't want to be stuck in the year before while everyone around me is moving forward. I want to be moving with them - ahead of them. I already made it clear I'm not exactly for making resolutions, but I guess if I have one it'd be to let go of what I cannot control. Because things are the way they are and being miserable isn't going to change anything. So, bring it on 2015. I've practiced.
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